One heavy eyebrow lifts. If this truly is a conversation and not an interrogation, as she promised, then she is correct. Give a little, get a little. It seems only fair.
"Some would argue that is the role of a soldier. To follow orders."
To be dispensable. He'd seen it time and again in war, watched countless soldiers fall and be replaced. That was the way of things. Who gave the orders now matters more than it did, but his opinion of what a soldier is hasn't changed much.
"But what's a soldier without the call to action? Without a cause we find worthy enough to put down our lives for? We thought we were fighting for the good of humanity, to end the war but we weren't."
Her fingernails dig into her palms as the heat rises a in her voice. Not aimed at Locus but her anger at the Director was never going to go away.
"We weren't soldiers anymore...just a deluded group of criminals and killers."
"Monsters," he clarifies. It's clear from the way he's studying her now that he wholly understands waking up to the fact that what you've been fighting for is meaningless. "And once you realize that, there's no point in continuing to fight the same battles."
Her attention shifts back to Locus as he speaks, a small bitter curl to her lips as she nods. It's something they've been called before on missions, something she didn't realize was true until much later.
"When your eyes are opened to that fact, you have two choices. Embrace the monster you have become, or abandon what you know. Find another path."
A path you might stumble on along the way, as he's well discovered. But Washington has taken that path and seen it through. It's possible. And he will never know for certain if he doesn't try.
He falls silent after that. Hopefully, her question is answered.
It's what she did, not that it really lead her anywhere for very long but...it helped the others get out and that's worth something. York had told her he'd been worried that Locus's slip in Silent Horizon would be lingering over him but so long as he keeps hold of that conviction? She thinks he'll be okay.
"Thank you for the answer, I know I didn't have much right to ask," she tips her head in his direction, a bit of the tension in her shoulders loosening up,"And- my previous offer to spar is still there whenever you're up for it."
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One heavy eyebrow lifts. If this truly is a conversation and not an interrogation, as she promised, then she is correct. Give a little, get a little. It seems only fair.
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"I refused to be part of the lie. We all thought we were doing the right thing but we were nothing more than tools and test subjects. Disposable."
There's a wealth of bitterness in the last word.
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To be dispensable. He'd seen it time and again in war, watched countless soldiers fall and be replaced. That was the way of things. Who gave the orders now matters more than it did, but his opinion of what a soldier is hasn't changed much.
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Her fingernails dig into her palms as the heat rises a in her voice. Not aimed at Locus but her anger at the Director was never going to go away.
"We weren't soldiers anymore...just a deluded group of criminals and killers."
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That, in essence, is the answer to her question.
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"Yeah. That's a good way to put it."
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A path you might stumble on along the way, as he's well discovered. But Washington has taken that path and seen it through. It's possible. And he will never know for certain if he doesn't try.
He falls silent after that. Hopefully, her question is answered.
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It's what she did, not that it really lead her anywhere for very long but...it helped the others get out and that's worth something. York had told her he'd been worried that Locus's slip in Silent Horizon would be lingering over him but so long as he keeps hold of that conviction? She thinks he'll be okay.
"Thank you for the answer, I know I didn't have much right to ask," she tips her head in his direction, a bit of the tension in her shoulders loosening up,"And- my previous offer to spar is still there whenever you're up for it."